Gracias!!

Ok so with everything going on lately, I have really put my life in perspective. I mean, thankfully I have always kind of had things in perspective, when you are told since you are born that you will never walk and that you will be mentally challenged your whole life, and then you do walk (like a penguin and fall down ALOT but hey its somethin) and you go to normal schools all your life and are in college (for 500 years but hey, its somethin) and yeah I may be a little goofy and blonde and dumb at times, but hey, what are ya gonna do? So honestly pity parties have never been my thing,because someone in the world will always have it worse than me, so who am I to bitch and cry because I broke a nail. But I am human and sometimes, well alot things dont go the way I hoped they would go, and it makes me a little sad. Like not doing so well on an exam, or the fact that im still in college (at least im going haters!) or realizing that I have $20 in the good ol' bank account, or not seeing some friends as much as I would like to because Im silly and am not a fan of certain people (silly i know) or just letting a certain someone walk away without telling them how I feel because I may talk big but inside im a big chicken shit scared of rejection like everyone else, or losing touch with good friends because i hate making plans, so they assume i dont like them and move on. Simply life is too short to worry about petty things or not be with the people who you love and make you happy. Why this heart to heart? Well this week I saw three people I love oh oh so much and havent seen in a long time. 1st one of my besties jill, who I havent seen since october or november, which is a long time when you live 10 minutes apart. We have so much fun together and I love her to pieces and I finally got to play with her last night and was soo happy! Then tonight I saw one of best guy friends (silly since we hardly ever talk anymore, but when we do its like we never lost touch) jonny for his bday, and made my other bestie (oh god i sound like an annoying pre-teen) amber who makes my heart go pitter patter come with me so I could see her as well. Oh yeah and last week I saw one of my other guy bff's (i really hate saying that, its like one of those dirty anatomy words to me) matt. so thats four! its a record! I have turned into quite the hermit for financial and personal reasons, so this is big for me! wow im rambling, here are all the things im thankful for (purpose of the blog)

1) being able to walk and NOT being mentally challenged. :)

2) having a job (i know i always diss it but its money and its easy and i can pretty much do whatever i want, and im good at it.)

3) my awesome family, especially the madre, i dont know what i would do without her, and my seester, even though we dont see eye to eye most of the time, i know she would do anything for me, and vice versa. shes the only seester i got man! And that I got to have courtney bless my life for 18 years.

4) my amazing friends. ashley for never being too cool for school and for being such a tough cookie, she also thinks it cool to me a grandma, as do I. :) Amber for being so much darn fun! there's never a dull moment with her. Also every time we see eachother it seems like all we do is talk talk talk, there's always so much to catch up on! Jilly for allowing me to be my dorkiest, and still be my friend. :) Clint who I opened up to quicker than anyone i've ever known, he doesnt bs me and is one of the only people i can just sit with and not have to talk. Anthony, when im around him i laugh...alot. Johnny mac for always being a sweetheart. And I can't forget matt who has taken care of me since highschool, he has always been a great friend.

So kiddies, my lesson of the day is be thankful for what and who you have in your life and try not to bitch about what you don't have. Also let these people know you love them every chance you get, because life is a short and crazy biatch and you never know where it will take you or the ones you love most. There's my sermon for the day, time to soak my dentures and watch murder she wrote, goodnight!

(who am i kidding, amber i know you're the only one who reads this, so goodnight to you my dear! )