Hello faithful, reader? Who are we kidding, Amber I should just start addressing these to you. :) It's been a long time! How's it going?Sorry, I suck at life. I've been....so, busy? Not really, just haven't had the patience to blog in a while, BUT I'M BACK BABY! Reading my old posts made me laugh, made me cry, made me cheer, but most of all, made me cringe. I made this lovely now neglected child two years ago, two years! And I haven't posted anything in over a year. And the worst blogger of the year award goes to......
I'm sad to see not much has changed in that time, except the weight loss journey, which i'm sad to report crashed and burned along with my bmi.
I'm still in school (sigh) and should probably start telling people i'm getting my doctorate, the time it will take me to finish will be the equivalent of four doctorate degrees.The other day I was at the hospital with my favorite twins and their family, and their lovely not so little seester was chatting me up. I ever so politely asking her about her life and what her plans were for college (EEK she's almost in college, im officially old) expecting a "mollie, im only a junior! i just want to party!" Instead this little person gives a BIG answer. Listening to her map out her college life I felt an emotion I don't feel often, jealously. This giant of a girl (seriously, 17 year olds should not be taller than me)knows exactly what she's majoring in, what school she's going to, where she's going to grad school, yadda yadda yadda. When I was 17 I didn't even know what my favorite color was. NOT F'IN FAIR! How much easier starting college would have been if I actually knew what I wanted to be when I grew up (I not so secretly wanted to be, and still want to be an actress, but I don't think the world is ready for a leading lady who walks like a penguin) And to end her story she tells me, "so I probably will graduate before you." This would be funny if I didn't think it could possibly end up being true. I remove the invisible butcher knife from my heart, keep my lower lip from quivering and suck the 5 year old tears back into my eyes. Why so hung up on school, you may ask? Well, because it only comes up every time I have a conversation with someone I know, minus my twinkie bff's who know how annoying it is, because they share my passion for being a professional student. I tell people when they ask (and they do ALL THE TIME) why i'm still in school that i'm just so eager to learn! I'm such a well rounded scholar, that's why i'm still there. My new name might as well be Vaneesha Wilder. Seriously people, let auntie mollie give you some etiquette 101, if you ask someone you havent seen in a while how they're doing, and school pops ups, regardless of what you're thinking so hard in your little peanut brain (what a loser, what a dummy, why is it taking her so long, why is she still walking funny, i thought that was just a phase?) please, I beg of you, keep the damn comments and facial expressions to yourself! Yes, I realize it's strange to be in school so long. Yes, I realize that's a tad silly, but what can I say, I'm a silly girl. Why all this damn pressure? Why is my non-degree holding life so much worse than someone who finished on time? I mean....most of the people I know with bachelors degrees aren't "living the dream." Unless that dream means you work 40 hours a week, date/marry someone you're mildly interested in, live in a house you can't afford, drive a car you definitely can't afford, and make mildly interesting babies....that you sure as hell can't afford. I'm already kind of living that dream of dreams. I work 40 hours a week, ok so im not dating someone at the current time (cough, cough) but im sure I could find someone im mildly interested in, shouldnt be that hard.....right? :/ I live in an apartment I can afford (still kind of weirded out by that) my car is paid off, and i don't have any boring babies.....that i know of.... I am a proud new auntie, and i will blast you with pictures in the future, be warned! Step off people, quit hatin'! Sorry i'm not fulfilling that cookie cutter ideal of adult life thats instilled in us since we were in utero! excuse me if i tend to live life with a little pizazz! (OK, my life has no pizazz at the moment, but you never know!) Someday I will have my crap together, but thank the sweet baby Jesus that's not today! Life's so much more interesting when you're not sure what the next few years old. I'm a rebel baby, so suck it!
I might as well change the name of the blog to "soap box" or "bitching"
So here's the whole point of this ranting......
So what if i'm still in school.
So what if i'm still single.
So what if i'm not pregnant with my third child.
So what if I've got more junk in the trunk than is necessary.
So what if my life's not completely figured out.
I'm 24, not 80. I've got (hopefully) lots of living left to do.
And i'm sure (with my lovely balance) I will fall down ALOT and mess up ALOT.
But as long as I have my familia and amigos to pick me up, or fall down with me, or just point and laugh, i'll be ok.
(however, if I haven't graduated by the time my 10 year reunion pulls along, i'm moving to mexico.)
